Laughter in the Rain
When I was young I was
carefree.
Never worried about the rainy
days
Never worried about the sunny
days
They just were.
When I was young there was
happiness.
Never thought that things would
change.
Never thought that life would be - well
life.
Happiness would just always
be.
When I was young love was
everywhere.
People helped others and never expected anything in
return.
I didn't know that love
hurts.
I hadn't lost love... it was just always
there.
Then I was an adult.
The fists flew.
The words cut life a
knife.
The abuse was daily.
Was this love?
It wasn't what I remembered as a
child.
Love wasn't a matter of survival
then.
Love was tender.
Love was kind.
This couldn't be true
love.
It was sick.
It was sinister.
My survival demanded that I
go.
I lost. I lost more than any one human should ever
lose.
I lost hope.
There was no laughter in the
rain.
A new day began.
I started looking..
within
without
everywhere... it had to be
here..
where was it?
The fear was gone.
No more beatings... never
again.
No more put downs... I am
worthy.
No more accusations... I am
innocent.
Life began again.
The phoenix had risen from the ashes - I
rose.
I looked in the
mirror...
I saw a battered woman.. physically,
mentally..
bruised not
beaten
I looked in the
mirror...
I found me. I found
love.
I love you I would
say...
I would hear that evil
laugh...
"You are unlovable."
I love you I would
say...
I would cry...
I love you I would
say...
Am I worthy?
I love you I would
say...
YES I am worth loving.
I am love.
Baby steps...
who am I?
What do I like?
What is my favorite
food?
Favorite color?
Slowly... with each
step..
I found me..
I found my inner
strength..
I found my love.
I found my heart.
Still there was no laughter in the
rain...
Baby steps...
I love me but can I trust
again?
If I trust will I be bruised and
battered?
If I trust will I be betrayed once
more?
Can I trust me enough to trust
you?
Slowly with each
step...
There was compassion.
There was gentleness.
There was love.
There was trust.
I trusted me.
I trusted you.
A new day dawned..
The sun shone bright.
The warmth of the sun touched my very
soul.
I smiled.
I loved.
I trusted.
A new day dawned..
It was cold and
dreary..
The rain was here..
it chilled to the
bone..
yet.. there was a ray of
sunshine..
the sunshine shone
within...
I walked outside and looked to the
sky..
as I stood in the rain looking
upwards...
I laughed...
Finally, there is laughter in the
rain.
(c) 1/11/2007
Sage
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